Archive for Marso, 2011


Free!

A scenario from a place in Dubai.I just don’t know the name as I haven’t been there.Actually I just grab this picture not to mention his name.:) You might wonder why I added this to one of my entry of my journey when in fact I haven’t been there.This ain’t about my travel. But as far as this place is concerned, there’s just a person whom I dearly admire who happens to be there.

My life this year 2011 wouldn’t be colorful without him coming in my life.Our friendship just started on the internet.I never imagined in my entire life that I would meet someone whom I will love via internet chatting. This doesn’t mean that I am a pessimist.I was afraid of falling in love again.Afraid to fall and that someone would hurt me once more.

As days go by,I have come to realized that I need be free. Free to feel being in love and free to be loved by someone. I pondered that whatever happened in my past things should be left as footprints. Like the birds in the sky.I want to spread my wings and get ready for love.

I hope that whatever may happen.The two of us (you know who you are) can overcome all the trials ahead. I decided to walk with you forever.It may not be now but I will very soon.♥

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kaon gyud..

This picture was taken at Portofino beach resort Lapu-lapu, Cebu City.

At your first glimpse you can see that I am really enjoying that moment.Yes,it’s true but behind those smile I am just hiding the pain that I went through.

I didn’t eat weeks before that.Breaking up to someone makes you restless:you can’t eat nor sleep.Yes,I was badly hurt and I couldn’t afford just to look at myself in the mirror.

I was over it.It was 8 months ago.

But recently, I experienced another situation.It  was last night.

Wild awake at 3am without eating .But only thinking of someone.Someone whom she knew for quite some time and actually she actually loved (though she didn’t meet him yet).

I realized love could make you crazy.Too much love will kill you as the song says.I just slept for an hour last night. Lying in bed with tears as my pillow.

Can’t afford to hurt again.

I had so much of it.

I do believe in fairy tales.Yes, it sounds weird as in this world we’re living there isn’t such thing like Romeo and Juliet but maybe Samson and Delilah love story might happen. Mine as I expected went out a Samson and Delilah story.

“So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you’re still on my mind”

I come to ask myself why are all the men I have loved would look for another girl (who is better than me maybe). I badly need the answer as based from my experiences, I have loved four men including the recent one and  none of them was mine.

“But there’s a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it’s sad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.”

The song above is really true. Love isn’t just enough to make someone stay.We can’t ask or beg someone to stay with you for love isn’t asked but it must be expressed for the person whom you’ve loved. So, if he doesn’t want to stay, let him go.The pain may be so hard at first yet through His grace we will overcome the pain and later on we’ll move on.

“Try to say it’s over, say the word good bye
But each time it catches in my throat
You’re still here in me and I can’t set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we’ll be friends forevermore
Wish I could open up that door.”

“Now here it comes the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that’s holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I’m just learning, learning the art of letting go.”

Lipay gyud ko.

Maski na wala ko trabaho gahapon wala gyud ko mahimutang. Sige lang ko ug tan-aw sa akong cellphone ug naa ba siya message para naku. Naunsa na kaha siya nga wala na mangyud nagparamdam naku? Mikaon ko,mihigda..wala man makatulog milakaw arun nga makapaload sa cellphone arun mo text na gyud ko niya. Wala pa ko kagawas sa gate mi ring ang akong phone. Daku kaaayu nakong kalipay nga mitawag na gyud siya. Akong nahibaluan nga ang iyaha diay laptop nahagbung unya wala na migana. Bantug ra kay pila na gyud ka adlaw wala mag online.Wala na ko balita naunsa na siya.Misultu siya nga napaayu na niya ang pc pero ang problema kay naputlan diay ug linya sa internet ang iyang giabangan.Gisungog gyud mi duha sa panahon pero nia lang gihapon ko naghuwat niya. Akong gi ampo nga maayu lang siya ug panlawas kay tua baya siya sa layu.

This question pops in my head as I wait for him.What makes him so special that I wait for him patiently?I never waited this long in my life. A good friend of mine always tell me that I am an impatient kind of person. I admit that.I know, I am.Tic tac tic tac ……..I can still hear the ticking of the clock even if there isn’t clock near me.Where is he?Why he isn’t here?What’s wrong?He didn’t even reply to my messages.I know somethings wrong between us these days.I can feel it. I can sense it.Oh God! I don’t know what to do.Is he worth the wait?Or is it my fault why I am waiting for someone whom I know he wouldn’t come?I know I am just talking to myself now.Somehow this could help me ease the feeling I kept inside.